the reality of things.

it seems like not long ago i decided to not be nothing like everybody else.

the decision spurred numerous other decisions, none of which have gotten me any further away from being nothing. one goal leads to another leads to another, and so forth.

all i want is success and comfort with where i am in life and every time i get close my bearings get set off course by some ridiculous factor.

take my employment over the last six months.
i had a good job. they were crazy. i quit.
i got my old job back. they were crazy. i quit.
i have this new job. im happy. but the fact that i hold a degree from a renowned university and have a minimum wage paying job, i must admit, rocks me to the core. okay. so actually that means im not really happy there.

actually to be even more realistic, it means i hate it.

i hate having to plaster on a fake smile everyday.
i hate having a schedule that changes every week on a whim.
i hate the laziness of the people i work with.
actually i just plain hate my job.

what the fuck did i just waste all that time and money attending the public ivy league of the west coast for?

for the same thing i couldve had all along:

a minimum wage crap job.

i am convinced that this world sets us up for failure.
so the question is,
how do we overcome the gravitational pulls of the world?

hopefully this will remain revolving around that topic.
no promises. i cant get my head straight. i have add.
so the topic will fall off course just as i have.